Hello all. Not much going on. My schedule is changing which means I will be able to socialize a little bit more. However I will see Matt less. I barely see him now, it sucks! However, he is the one who has the most confidence in us, and we talk about our future together all the time. I know what our future holds, and I just want to get it started. I am really starting to want children. Yes, I know, it's carazy. Matt and I are going to have some really blonde kids I tell you.
It's weird not being online a lot, I used to be all the time, now I am just blah about everything. I need to change my attitude.
I miss my friends. I miss shag. I miss working during the day.
I'm doing low carb again. Not the strict atkins which means not even gum, but I don't consume more than 20 carbs in a day. I do drink once or twice a week which kind of ruins it. I have only lost 9 lbs in a month. It sounds like a lot, but not really when you are not eating what you want, and then ruinging it by drinking. If I didn't drink those 2 nights, i'd be way skinnier. Darn yoU! Still curving it at curves! woo !
I have many stressors right now, and getting deeper and deeper in debt. It's pretty awesome. I mean it's not like I am close to bankruptcy. I just want to make a dent!
There is a couple coming to look at our place on Tuesday. Matt is willing to give the washer and dryer, and even go down $3,000 in cost. If we sold this place, that would be sweet. If it did happen we would probably just rent somewhere, and then look for a house, or even build one. It would be sweet to build one, but I do not have patience, or the sense of building to worry about it.
I do like our place though, well mostly the living room cause it's so darn cute. My mom and Mark both got us some really nice paintings. I bought the most adorable clock from pier 1, and Renee gave me a framed photo of one of my favorite pictures ever. "kissing on vj day"
Happy quarter century to Renee by the way.
I am going to Myrtle Beach May 8-14. If anyone wants to tag along, or if 2 of you want to tag along, all you will have to pay is gas. We have the resort booked, so you won't have to pay for that. I figured it out, and gas would be about $160 round trip. So for 2 it would only be like $80!
Happy Birthday to my Mom. She is 46 today, and looks about 35. I hope I age as well as she. She is the best ever.
Man I am missing so much! I miss my friends, I miss live shows! Honestly even with my stressors and debt, if I worked different hours I would be back to myself, and be extremely happy. I would see my friends, my boyfriend, do things. Oh man, it would be sweet.
I am thankful though. In certain aspects, I feel I am the luckiest person ever. Finding your soulmate (sounds cliche and cheesy I know) is probably the most powerful feeling ever. I never thought it would happen to me because I have been shit on so much, I clung way to long, and I have shit on others. I guess that's life right?
I miss you Jennay ! I found my Mraz life with no scratches!